i need some wall

Dear god, give me the strength to face the outcomes. i really need a thick wall to block any sad feeling for not having things that are not fully mine. or for best, give me a sign to choose the path which i should follow... i'm weak..

Four duck on a pond,
A grass-bank beyond,
A blue sky of spring,
White clouds on the wing;
What a little thing
To remember for years -
To remember with tears.