confused or worried?

The breeze sometimes trying to tell me something. confused, yet worried. i don't know which way to go. it never be the same if i let it go now. all i can do now is wait and keep waiting until my heart said enough.

thanks for the home cook

i wish everyday was like today.

the king with his crown

I once read someone wrote that "The hardest thing you'll ever do is watch the one you love, love someone else". its getting harder when it all happened in front of you and you just pretending that you don't give a fuck about it. This headache is like a crown for me. it kept covering my head whenever i confront with these situation. the last time i suffered from it, it was the worst ever. hours of pain, couldn't get on my feet. whenever i opened my eyes it goes blank.
The medication only gonna give you a short relive. that the reason for dumping all those pills.

hitler or fuhrer?

The last time i saw her, she was in a car, heading out from the hostel. The absent of her is at everywhere i looked. I cant sleep without my blanket and i cant be a pillow without her using me. It's nice when things are easy, but this time the situation is complicated. I was not the one who makes decision. She did.

In the era of Nazi's, the assassination of Hitler or Fuhrer did not turn well as Fuhrer did survive from it. now the idea is still the same but Fuhrer was not a part of the idea. Fuhrer must live for some reason. right now, I'm listening to a song that telling me literally that consistency is a fatal flaw. well, in my opinion it has to be that way. consistency would make ones life be damn boring. what is life without one knowing the feeling of heartache, bitterness and sorrow? it wouldn't be so called roller coaster ride if these feeling doesn't exist.

Fate is not something that we cant control. as a matter of fact, we can. i'm not gonna forget coz the chasing is still on.