sorry for M.I.A

Spending the night in a ward for hypertension was not an idea for me to escape from people. i need some rest. away from civilization. I'm not hiding. with a short time, i just cant make it. i need more time. once again i want to clear it out, I'm not hiding. still fighting for that amount. i am not a leaver. the plans is still on. just wait for my arrival. sorry again for two of you.

strangers on this road we were on...

all i wish is you

thats great

say whatever y'all want to say..i don't care. its a mess that i cant even fix it anymore..thanks for telling things that you guys don't know bout me...a lot..

what am i doing?

I'll try to create a mess by saying things that i never mean to say. i cant keep doing it. I'm crying instead. a friend of mine dragged me out of the house to cool me down. i don't know what to do. i just cant accept the reason.

1st move

I bleached my hair to Matty grunge mocha today..i did it for the gig on this 20th..nah..not really.. i did it to ditch away the old me..i want to create a new person..not so drastic but slowly..

i found something on a blog which i accidentally bump into..it got a post named 'Words women use and what they really mean', and i found a word which i didn't really like because it quite often pop out in the air.

That's Okay the word it is - This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow".

nobody can beat the gravity.. i fall apart..i need to work me arse off to built up again.

in my boxer?

after watching 24 hours party people, i think I'm gonna be like the main character in that movie. carefree, not hopping to much from a relationship and free from plans. yes, free from plans! i don't want to have any plan on certain things, i had lose my believe on that. its not real. most of it are fake. if its true then the plan would be successful achieved. but it never happen...I'm still hoping but my patient has a limit.. it may not last.

as time past by and memories remain..how could a man be so blind with what will happen next..i never says goodbye for what that had gone away..hoping that it will come again..in return I'll get the pain and you'll get the fame.

I'm not afraid, to take control again,

people keep blaming me,

but i'm gonna prove them wrong......

i found myself, trying so hard,
people keep blaming me,
but I'm gonna prove them wrong.....

there must be other way.

damn it

This is not the right time. mentally abuse. i was hopping for more and i want to own it. fully mine. but it just ended like that, at this critical moment, where i had a big decision to make. fuck. what left is a piece of shirt that i can't even look at it right now. thought of returning it but there is no way i can see that face again......................

what a fatal flaw...what a day..


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