the king with his crown

I once read someone wrote that "The hardest thing you'll ever do is watch the one you love, love someone else". its getting harder when it all happened in front of you and you just pretending that you don't give a fuck about it. This headache is like a crown for me. it kept covering my head whenever i confront with these situation. the last time i suffered from it, it was the worst ever. hours of pain, couldn't get on my feet. whenever i opened my eyes it goes blank.
The medication only gonna give you a short relive. that the reason for dumping all those pills.